Tina Fey: I Salute You

The more I watched 30 Rock the more I realize that the show is incredibly clever and is full of fantastic characters and spot-on humor. At first, I kind of arbitrarily watched it after The Office was finished because it was on and Tina Fey was on my T.V. and I like her. After my slow immersion and tuned out watching, I started to actually enjoy the show for it's uniqueness.
After watching an episode of 30 Rock with 3 guys and listening to their reactions, though I was already a fan, I must salute Tina Fey.
She has brought the allure of geek chic back to the mainstream, reinstating the time-honored fantasies of the sexy librarian or school teacher. She is desired not only for her body, but for her wit and intelligence. Men like funny women. She is bold, quirky, confident, intelligent, and hilarious. As far as I can tell, this drives guys nuts and that leaves hope for the rest of us normal women.
I like to imagine that Tina Fey is low-maintenance, down-to-earth, and can keep up dissing insults with the boys, much like myself (or so I try to be).
And her hair is fantastic and so low fuss. Adorable.

Welcome to the Dumps, Population: Me

My hormones have me under their command sometimes and it's days like these I wish I had a y chromosome.
I've been very on edge and easily upset.
I feel like I'm not able to access my full creative potential.
I feel academically inadequate and unable to comprehend simple things.
I feel physically incapable of being beautiful.
I feel really sad and crappy and I really just want to cry and for someone to say that I'm wonderful and everything will get better.
I'm scared that I will never have a decent job and will live in debt the rest of my life.
These are all real fears I have that really shouldn't be relevant at this point in my life, but they are.
I'm sad and scared and forgetful and uninspired.

"I've been around a mirror enough
to know it's hard to change.
We're like magicians when we dream
but we wake up... nothings different."

The Faint, Mirror Error

Mother Would Be Proud

It's the eve before spring semester begins and I must say, I am surprised. I'm feeling anxious. Not nervous or excited, but anxious. I don't know what the semester will bring, but I've already made some fantastic steps just today.

• I dyed (part of) my hair red. Not my whole head and not a vibrant, bright red, but the underneath part is now red to some extent. I like it a lot. I've always wanted to do it and it didn't turn out disastrous. I'm sure my mother will be less than thrilled, but she doesn't have to see it until I come home.
  
• I am now a photographer for the Daily Gamecock! If you're not familiar with USC campus life, the Daily Gamecock is the school newspaper at the University of South Carolina. I haven't actually done anything yet, but my first meeting is tomorrow. I'm very excited about this, you have no idea.
• I'm in the midst of starting a photography group on Facebook to effectively cater to my friends' and acquaintances' needs for nice looking pictures, be it to promote recitals, headshots, or just a new default picture. This is purely for the joy of taking pictures of my friends and allowing myself to get some good field experience. The only roadblock I've encountered is that I don't know what to call it. While I figure I'll be shooting primarily musicians (as most of my friends are music majors), I don't want to narrow it to only that. The title says it all, really. It needs to be memorable, elegant, and not totally cryptic. I really like Ars Nova Photography. While it is a stylistic period in music of the Middle Ages (this is how I found it), it's Italian for "new art" or "new technique". Digital photography is a new technique and new art form, in relation to more traditional forms of art like painting or sculpting. I'm going to sleep on it I think.
  

I actually think I'm going to enjoy all of my classes this semester. I'm taking:

• Speech
• Intro to Econ
• Psych of Marriage (don't ask me why)
• Journalism Writing
• Graphic Production (Journalism)
  
• University Band

My primary objective is to get my Life Scholarship back and that can only be done by getting a cumulative GPA of 3.0 this year. I'm teetering at a 2.75 right now and it's taunting me. My frame of mind is leading me to believe I might actually enjoy learning this semester (gasp!) and for that my momma would be proud.