Do I Really Deserve Better?

My Facebook news feed and I are in an abusive relationship.
It always knows just how to get under my skin and manipulate my emotions. It knows just the things to show me that will reduce me to tears at my most vulnerable times. It shows me what every old flame is doing and all my happy friends who are in relationships or getting engaged or getting married or having babies or on vacation, or hell, all of the above.
It's like these things are there to just remind me how totally alone, abandoned and used I've felt every waking moment of the past 3 months. I have never wanted to be somewhere else more than ever this summer. The handful of fun experiences I've had were peppered with the stinging sensation that there was no common denominator there with a boyish giggle to share these moments with.
I'm hopeful that I'll find someone someday that will appreciate all I can give. Maybe someone will want to be around me as much as I enjoy being around them.
I haven't cried this much over one silly boy in years.
How did I lose everything I wanted by doing everything right?